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June 23 Mount KinabaluMount Kinabalu... a tremendously exhausting trip. On Thursday, 12 June 08, Dao & I took the 9.30am flight to KK. He was all geared up and bubbling with excitement, where else I was feeling sick in the stomach and thinking - “Am I really gonna have to climb that tall mountain”.
Nether less, we still had to get onto the flight, and get our butt to KK. We spent another hour or 2 at the KK Airport while waiting for the shuttle bus, before being transferred to Mesilau…the foot of Mt KK. There’s about 50+ of us from company, and the bus journey up to Mesilau took about 2-3 hours (if I remembered correctly). The bus-ride and the location of Mesilau, reminded me a lot of Cameron highlands. Being on the hill, chilly and windy. It was a wet journey, when we arrive it was already dark and wet with rain..what a great start!
Checked into our chalets and headed over for our dinner. Cold windy evening… After dinner, it’s lepak lepak around and off for an early night rest…
Friday, 13 June 08.. Woke up extremely early at 6am for breakfast, group briefing and start off our hike up to Laban Rata at about 8am… We passed our bags to porters who charged RM8 per/kg. How I wish I could afford to pay them to carry me up too.
Our route from Mesilau up to Laban Rata is a lonnngggggg route..but with beautiful scenery along the way. We tracked the never ending route…and the only thing on my mind was “when will I ever arrive”… Really amazed with the porters carrying about 30-40kg behind their back, and yet they walked up the mountain as if they are weightless. Morning hike was quite pleasant…but after lunch about 1pm, I felt my energy was draining and really felt like I was walking on Cloud 9. Not only that, it started raining… Wet, cold, tired and hungry, I thought I was gonna die on the mountain.
Anyway, made it up the mountain, and by then it was already DARK! 7pm++.. Abit regret why I didn’t walk faster earlier during the hike.. I was walking slowly and enjoying the view, lepaking…
It was a quick dinner that night, then off to bed early about 9pm+. Rest only for the 3 hours, then got woken up again at 12am+ to start our next hike up to the peak at 1am. This was the horrible part…already with aching legs, had to drag myself out of my warm bed, into the dark, cold wet weather outside in the middle of the night, when it’s bedtime for everyone. Popped a panadol, rubbed loads of Deep Heat, pull on my Windbreaker, I stood outside of Laban Rata waiting to start the last hike up, determined to catch the Sun Rise.
Saturday, 14 June 08.. The 1st part of the hike was a lot of steps, stones along the mountain. Towards the top, it’s basicly, dangling yrself at the side of the clift, pulling yrself over to the other side of the mountain. It was dark, cold and slippery.. A very very dangerous stunt… Imagine there’s only like 1 inch of foot space for yr feet, and when u look down, u see dots of lights like the highway.. one slip of foot, down the mountain u go. The last final few steps was very challenging…it’s very steep, slippery and almost every 10-20 steps up the hill leaves me breathless, gasping for air. That’s when I bumped into Dao again, and that’s when I decide that it doesn’t really matter if I make it up for Sun Rise or not. I’m feeling very comfortable resting on the rock, and what matters most is that I enjoy myself.. hahaha
So there we were, sitting about 100m beneath the final climb up to the Peak, waiting for the sky to brighten up. Looking at all the ppl still beneath the mountain far far away, and looking at those who already passed us to make the final hike.
The view was spectacular up there… The sense of achievement is still there…that I made it up. Snap Snap pictures, then we headed back down, walking slowly as both my toes is already killing me. By the time we arrived back at Laban Rata it’s 10.30am, and 11am we continued our climb back down to Sipilok (I think)..towards the other route, not the Mesilau route which we took earlier.
Aching toes, we arrived back down at KK Park again about 7pm for dinner. After dinner transferred over to the KK town to the apartment there.
Now When we got back to KL, was feeling feverish for the next few days, must be the rain we got at the mountain. Not only that, my 2 blue-black toes…soooo black!
Mt KK again?? Nehhhh..once is enough. May 28 Bangkok BangkokingWent to Bangkok with Michelle and Jason, my 2 chi-mui colleague from 23rd - 26th May 2008.
Supposed to go with Jeralyn, but dear friend of our's got stuck with work and had to ffk us. So end up only 3 of us.
We stayed at Bangkok's tallest hotel -> Baiyoke Sky 2, and they upgraded us to a Ladies Floor Suite on the 65th floor.
Great place for shopping and I came back broke. Spent more then expected, but still happy with what I've bought.
Ran into some problem which scared the hell out of me during our last night there at Bangkok. Being in a foreign country, cashless and friendless, it was extremely scary...especially knowing that I couldn't call anyone for help at all.
Since got back from Bangkok, had been having Gastrick everyday. Guess it's probably bcos of the spicy, salty and all the sweet food we ate there..
Time for early bed now..will load up photo's after I finish my long pending master's assignment wihch is due this coming Monday. May 02 AgitatedSomething wrong with me this evening...
Feeling extremely hot tonight, tired from a whole day of walking around, but my mental just refused to shut down and let me rest.
The same thing has been happening past few days...Days that I can hop into bed by 11pm, but once in..somehow I will wake up at about 12.30am,and start my "sleepless night". This endless nights is making me grumpy and less productive at work.
I suppose, it's largely due to the fact that I have too much stored in my head at the moment. I am trying to juggle it all, gain peace from within, and have trust in God that all this will work out in the end... But problem by problem just keeps coming and keep slapping me in the face.
I know it's not easy for him to face it...as he has his own problems. It's also a bad habit of me to keep waking him up in the middle of the night when I can't sleep. It's sometimes just so difficult to understand why certain things happen that way. I know he has a bad temper, but why throw the temper at me when I'm already half sunken.. that will just sink me even more.
There's alot more to this then what I have expected...no wonder there is so many consulting courses which you have to attend 1st, to ensure that you are fully ready to face all this with yr peer. I'm beginning to understand it all now...and realise there's so much more to learn. If only we both could learn to work together, and stop bitting each other's head off...perhaps this would help give me back some sleep at night?
Don't get me wrong..I am happy for this move we both have decided to take together...and I guess it's just human nature that I can't help but to worry. Can we get along living together and chewing each other's head off everyday? Will he change? will I change? Will he treat me different?
I like how things are lately...he tells me stories, about his work and his friends...I'm beginning to feel part of him. And also he has started blending into the group with my colleagues, that they actually gang up together to give me & jason a surprise Bday dinner. Hope none of this will change...
As said in my earlier blog..it's difficult to pin point what am I worried about. I'm enjoying myself thinking of how I want it to be, who to invite and all that...he is a great guy and I trust he'll take care of me. Of cos, not all my plans will turn out ideally, we just got to make-do with what we have and improve on it later as money don't grow on trees.
Things just happen so suddenly... 4 years of completely no talks / plans of this to happen... and suddenly we're given only 9 months to plan and execute it. It was very unexpected..and I really never expected it to happen. Although we had been rushed by many parties, but I've always brushed it aside.
From 9 months, it has reduced to 7 months because of another happy news that his sister is delivering soon and my sister's exam. 7 months, have become 6 by now. Time is ticking, and I'm gonna be real busy for the rest of May for my other assignment & rolling out education classes...leaving only 5 months for planning & executing this project. April 30 Moving forwardMy 26th birthday today.. Unbelievably, I'm leaving behind already a quarter of a centuary and moving forward.
Things are beginning to fall into place now...with all the support I am getting. I'm jst feel so lucky and blessed.
Excitement is building, and stress is coming along with it, with such tight runway. So much to do with so little time.
I got a cute little gift (something I always wanted) from my 2 favourite colleagues... Will post up pictures later on my bday celebration this year..
A Memorable one..
Running away for a con-call now..to type more later tonight. April 20 I wonder how, I wonder why...I wonder how, I wonder why...
Things never stay the same the way it is forever..Things change, people change, it is just about how we adopt.
A happy story at the beginning, turned to fear wondering what lies ahead and whether this change of moving forward is for the better
Slowly the fear is turning into a 'headache'.. a nightmare which constantly bugs me from both ends. Like being in the middle of a tug-of-war rope, both ends of the rope trying to grab yr attention..and both ends for some reason just could not meet up end to end, making a circle and losening the tension in the middle.
But one thing good of this tug-of-war, bring in the middle thing is that..I know for sure the fear is gone at the moment. Temporary or permanent I'm not sure. But I know I no longer fear if this is what I want..for I know, this IS what I want. Maybe I'm just stubborn..or my nature to be rebellious.. But my heart & instincts tells me..it's time for a change.
Just when I'm getting some hope of getting ride this 'headache', and finding a solution..there comes the splash of cold water by 1 side of my rope. Demotivated is the word to describe how I feel. Hurt because I'm not getting the support which I need.
But yet, by the stubborn and rebellious nature of a Tauraun, up I stand again, to continue my battle fighting for my rights.
How long I'll be able to stand upright, I'm not sure. Like playing chess, I can just hope to conquer the King ASAP in as little steps as I can take.
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